Yummy

I am using the above photo as my YM avatar, and I am amused by the comments I received about it. Read:

Rey Gigants: yap.grabe ka sexy, as in..
Rey Gigants: mingawon man sad ta ana sa akong asawa
Michelle: hahahahaha
Rey Gigants: naa kay whole pic ana?
Rey Gigants: send be
Michelle: naa..
Michelle: kajut lang ha
Rey Gigants: send sa ako email

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Ayanzee: taga-i kuno ko ug full picture ana ni angelica beh?
Ayanzee: na-intirgia gyud ko niya da
Michelle: hahaha
Ayanzee: hahaha
Michelle: oks
Ayanzee: hala kayasa
Ayanzee: baby pa man ni siya kaayo sa una uy
Ayanzee: kayasa paytera gyud ni angelica diha uy

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harold: sexy lage kag avatar
Michelle: yeah, of course
harold: e send sa akong email
Michelle: hahaha
harold: tawa raba
harold: lami kau c angelica oi
Michelle: nyahahhaha...
Michelle: oh my God... pareha jud mog comment tanan
Michelle: LAMI
harold: bwahahah
harold: dako kaau ug boobs

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and this from no other than Gigi:

kits: kita njd ko avatar nmo..
Michelle: daghan kau kog fans..
kits: ahehehhe
kits: lami-ah jud ni angelika oi..
Michelle: hahahhaha
Michelle: luuda nimo oi
Michelle: manyak
kits: sus! angelikahhh...
Michelle: hahaha.. manyak ka!
kits: adto nako ofis. babosh... *hugs angelikahhh tyt*
Michelle: pag-angelica na dra kaw
Michelle: ayuko na sayo


All of them has one word for her. And that is LAMIIIIII... (Extended with this icon attached---> )

Hahaha.. Boys will be boys.

cheers..

Hate Me by Blue October

I could listen to this song whole day. What is it with sad stories, sad songs, sad etc that could trigger emotions from us??? It certainly creates greater impact than happy stuff.. I wonder.

Anyways, this is my current favorite song, but will change without further notice.. hehe.

Watch! Listen! Click: Hate Me by Blue October

Sing Along with this lyrics, too:

Artist: Blue October
Song: Hate Me

Mother: Hi Justin! This is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya. Take care honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!

(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don't loose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you


(Verse 3)
And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I found out I can't make it go away, just make it stop
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you did this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you, for you, for you, for you...


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Gosh, I just looovvve the Youuu-hoooo part!

cheers..

Looking Ahead

It's almost Christmas, soon it will be my birthday. Then the New Year will come and go, then Valentines Day, then it'll be Christmas again. And so the cycle continues..

Next year, Samsam will be leaving to work in the US, probably on January, for I don't know how long. And I will miss him. We have been friends since college and I know most of what he's doing while we're here in Cebu. Through Gigi, of course..hehe. We got pretty close here because we do not have other matters to be busy with. So we just bear each others' company. And I'm sure they suffer my constant presence at their apartment, hehe.. They're stuck with me.

Next year, Samsam won't be around to do the usual stuff with. There will be 1 person less to talk to, to annoy, to make fun at, to tease, to match up with Jansci..hehe.. And I don't know that when he'll be back maybe a year or two from now, he'll be the same Samsam that we know. He will be doing stuff there and we'll be doing other stuff here, then we'll trade stories. But it is always better if we do all those stuff together.

Then who's next to go to Utah? Patrick? Ryan? Gigi???!! Huhuhu.. I dont think I like Wats that much.

And that's that.

I still have to get used to his "going away". Come to think of it, Mae is in Manila and Escuts is in Iligan and I don't have any news about them lately. Maybe because the US is like the moon in my way of thinking while Mae and Escuts are just a few minutes' flight away. And speaking of my bestest best friends, I wonder what's going on with their lives now.. I haven't heard from them for some time. To think that we were inseparable a few years back... :(

Life really isn't what it's used to be and will continue to be different from what we want and what we expected.

What does life and future have in store for me? I am hoping for inner peace. I will be 23 this coming December and I hope I will get a little bit more mature. But I am doubtful.

Back to my inner peace thingy, since I stepped on Cebu, it seemed that I am always seeking for something. And I am still looking. I am pretty much a Home-buddy and I want to go home to a place that feels like one. I have not found my peace over this being away-from-home-and-being-independent thing. I still continually wish for Mama to shop with, Papa to make lambing with, Dodong to bug with, home-cooked meals to eat, Monggo to cook, a room to daydream at and be alone . I continually wish for the at-home feeling. Will I find that in Cebu? For sure I will find that in Iligan but will it feel the same with most of my friends and Gigi somewhere else? Home is where the heart is, they say. I don't know where my heart is at, and that's what makes it complicated.

As for now, life and future is still pretty hazy for me. I live a pointless life and I don't see a bright future ahead. I'm pathetic.. Better be dead, right? hehhehe.. Ok, I'll find myself some psycho killer..

Haayy.. Don't get me wrong. I am cheerful today.. :D <--- see?

cheers...