DOA rocks!

Just saw DOA (Dead or Alive) last Sunday and it sure rocks! The girls were hot, I wish I were one of them. I really like Christie best. She's sexy, seductive and naughty. She knows that men can't resist her and she uses that to her advantage to get what she wants. You go girl!

Haay.. I just wish I were that sexy. Maybe I should start that gym thing I was planning for a long time. But working out is such a hassle and I just don't have the energy to go to the gym from the office after work, sweat for 2 hours then ride a jeep to ayala then another one to get home.. I'd rather sleep after work and dream of a perfect figure. hehehe.. oh well.

cheers..

just rambling..

it's been a while since i posted here. i changed my url because there are just thoughts that i can not share with some people. i know that with the search engine, everything is traceable. i just thought it was a good idea to change url at the time.

a lot has happened lately and there are only a few happy things that i could think of.

i had the longest weekend ever.. i'll just leave it at that.

went home for a few days. glad to see nothing's changed much at home. it's the same house, the same room and its as if i were not away for months.

not in the mood now. i'll write again when i have a more cheerful topic to write about.

cheers.

My Visayan poem

Chelito has this blog full of Visayan poems/lyrics. I'm a jealous person so I'm making one for myself, hehe.. Had the chance to "compose" while waiting for Gigi to arrive from work yesterday. This is before S^&%$! happened.. hehe.
You've got to read this, hahahahha....


Asa Na si Gigi

Ako naglingkod dre sa tugkaran
Atubangan sa balay nga ilang giabangan
Nagtagad ni Gigi kay ingon cya ako muadto
Sa ilang balay, kay cya dre mudiretso.

Apan pag-abot ko, diari walay tawo
Walay mabuhat kon dili magpungko
Ug magpaabot hangtod cya muabot,
Kung kanus-a, ako muingon ug "Ambot".

Ako una isugilon ngano ako ngari napad-pad
Kini man god si Gigi sigeg sakit ang tiyan
Pipila na ka adlaw kini walay lungtad
Mao kami nagsabot muadto sa doktor, ipatan-aw iya tiyan.

Hay nako, asa naman intawon cya.
Gikapoy nakog huna-huna'g binisaya
Unsa man ako ipares sa "binisaya"?
Hmm.. kuan nalang: "Hahahhaha..."


Ahihihihi.. It's stupid. I KNOW..

cheers..

Not my day today...

This is not my day today. I hate this day. Went to Mactan Doctors, gigi was having his ulcer checked up. went to their apt to rest. then... S#$%!

Had a talk, it was ok. Problems discussed. Too many of them. Realized some things.. Don't like the feeling.

Didn't sleep, couldn't sleep to be exact.

Had dinner with PODD. Was okey. I guess. Im here now, working my ass off. Sleepy, grainy eyes, want to sleep, want to give up.

Not my day today.

no cheers..

I love Pussycat Dolls

I love Pussycat Dolls!!! I think they're sexy, great dancers and their songs are hot.
That's all I wanna say.. =D

cheers..

A very spiritual?? composition..

I have a co-worker who serves as an altar boy throughout his school years. He said a priest financed his education from highschool to college and he served in church for almost all of his life. He's new and since I'm a little conversational when I choose to, we actually became fast friends.. :) I even paid for his fare when he and I went home from work together.. hehe.. yeah, thats me.. miss congeniality.

Well anyways, since he was such a religious guy and of course knew many stuff about God, the church, philosophy, theology, etc... I told him I want to die. He said, why? I said I am just not interested with what life has to offer.. He said Wow, that's cool.. haha.. He then sent me many philosophical quotes about life and death with authors no other than Descartes, St. Augustine, and many others and honestly, I really didn't comprehend the meaning of those quotes. It was just too deep and spiritual for my powers. Then he said that maybe if he wanted to die, his reason would be to look back at his life and know his importance, the purpose why he was sent here. Then I said, "but then you would be dead and won't be able to come back".. I thought I was being smart when I told him that and anticipated his reply. Then he answered with "That would be the only way to know your purpose. Only God knows it." He has a point.. demmit.

Today, he again sent me a quote from someone really really smart.. I dont know who but I'm certain he's dead. Please read:

A monk asked Abbot Poemen: "Father, teach me the first step in the spiritual life." The Abbot replied: "It is written, 'I will declare my sinfulness and think of my sins.'"

I was, Haaaa??? Then he explained some stuff and i still didn't get it.

Anyways, he then asked me if I have an idea where I was before I went out of my mother's vagina.. (Not that exact phrase.....but you know what I mean). I said no. Do you? I expected a Miss Universe answer and I was not disappointed. His reply was "I was told by a monk that we did not exist. But we already exist in God's plans." Wowww...

I asked him if he believes in heaven and earth and he said "Yes. Do you?"

Yes, I do believe in heaven and I wish I'd go there when I die. I even want to go there now.. But talking with Chelito makes me realize that I have many things to live for still.. i could enumerate them here, hehe:

1. I want to be married
2. I want to have children. 3 only. That' s MAXIMUM, not 4 or 5..got that gi?? better if 1 lang kay sakit sa B_L_T, hehehehehehe..
3. Visit other places
4. Ride a roller coaster, kanang taas kaau nga murag makamatay
5. I want to see celebrities, hehe..
6. Go to a Britney Spears concert. I know she's old news right now but I spent my highschool days admiring, idolizing britney spears and even fought for her. I just hate Christina Aguilera, bitch. Haha.. I spent hours at internet cafe just saving all britney pictures I could find.
7. I want to eat different, delicious cuisine.. gluttony could get me to hell.. pero please Lord make an exception.
8. I want to own a beautiful house for my family
9. Treat my parents with a shopping spree to Hongkong or a vacation in the US
10. I still want to buy cool things for myself, hehe..

I know these are shallow, but I'll just have to live for those reasons... hahaha..

Kapoy nag sulat ug ininglish, so mao ra ni.

cheers..

Please answer my question...

What's interesting with what life has to offer?


No cheers today.. Figuring out what my life is all about. Yeah.. :|

My hero..

Watched superman with Gigi last night.. I thought it was just an hour and forty minutes long but turned out I was looking at the movie length for Scary Movie. Got late for a meeting.. barely got there on time.

Anyways, no regrets. Even if we had no budget for movie watching, Superman was so sexy that I didnt mind spending money we barely can afford, hahaha! I have a new ultimate crush, sorry Channing Tatum, sorry Gigi, you're being replaced...

This is him. Ooohh..be quiet my heart, sigh..




I downloaded the Superman wallpaper and saved it as desktop background so I can drool over Superman everytime I see the desktop...

I wish I were Lois Lane..! Lucky her! Some gals just have the luck! I hate her.



oh well, so long.. have a very important urge to do... dream and drool over the image on my desktop... sigh.. Superman.. save me..

Haha! Gigi will kill me...

cheers..

Tepen.. my cousin? Haha..

I knew tepen looked familiar the first time I saw him.. haha! The pic on the left is my cousin Gboy, that's tepen on the right.. They looked a little similar, don't you think? Hmm.. ante is maybe 37 now, and tepen is... 23? ante had tepen when she was 14 years old and gave him to tepen's present parents.. hahahhaha! a likely story.

cheers..

My new template

Weee!!! I got a new template.. Please bear with the stupid face at the top... I just felt like it..haha..

cheers..

About the Fra Lippo concert..

We went to a Fra Lippo Lippi concert the other night... Well, its not really the Fra Lippo Lippi band coz only the lead singer was there, Per Sorensen. He has a nice voice and the songs are okey, I guess.. I am not really into Fra Lippo Lippi coz I'm more of the RnB, HipHop girl and I prefer music that lets you move to the beat. But all of the peepz wanted to go, so there I was in the back row, watching Per do his awful dance step, hehe.. minus. Sorry, I just think he doesn't have body coordination. His trademark move is to open his arms wide while singing and moving his hips from side to side...

I think he's gay. No, im sure he's gay (no offense). He wore a black, see-through shirt and the way he acted were a little feminine. And at the end, he put an act on saying it was the last song when it was obvious that he'll be back on the stage, he just wanted the audience to ask for more...fishing for compliments.. hehe. So there. He left the stage during his "last song", but the band didnt move an inch. When the audience didnt give any effort in asking him to come back to the stage, the backup singers just encouraged the people to shout for more.. hehehe. I just thought it was funny...

I know Gigi and Patrick wouldn't approve of this write-up coz they like Fra Lippo and I think they enjoyed the show. It's obvious I didn't.. hehe, sorry. It's just not my kind of music.. Hmm.. its not exactly that "I didn't like it", it's just that it won't be a great loss if I missed it.. Oh, is it the same thing?? Am I making it worse..? haha...

But honestly, the songs are okey.. REALLY... yeah.

cheers..

About work... again

Done with the meeting. but the tasks and deadlines doesn't end there. More to come and I mean MOOORREE to come. Im tired. only slept for 3 hours. What am I doing in this marketing stuff..? but its cool, maybe i can handle this... i will handle it. i'm learning new stuff everyday.. nothing more to add. im going home now and get some sleep, for goodness sake.

This and that...Again

I'm writing now because I have time (yey, it's a miracle)... unlike my previous entries which I made time to write because I had the urge.. :) well anyways, these are what has happened lately:

My friends had a well-deserved night out 2 weeks ago and we had a blast! We went to a videoke bar and they sang, hehe.. I just sat there and hid behind Gigi's armpit so I couldn't sing.. I'm terrible, believe me, and I'm proud to admit it. End of discussion.

After videoke, we went to a disco bar and I observed some "worldly" happenings that shocked my innocent senses.. hehe.. and it's funny to see hero getting drunk! oohh.. poor baby...

Then, I went home to Iligan for Lent. There's no place like home..ever. Missed my mom, my popsy and bro.. missed everything. I dont know if I'm ever staying in Iligan for good. Like settling there and raise a family. It makes me sad because the more I think about it, the more unlikely it seems. I know I can never have the kind of job and salary in Iligan that I'm enjoying here in Cebu. It's amazing how jobs can be a major factor why people migrate. Hmm.. no. If you think about it, it's the ONLY reason why we all leave home.. Oh well, that's the truth, that's life.. so okey, whatever.

And finally, I had my hair fixed, and its fixed alright. You've got to see it!hehe.. yup, im not bragging.. I endured a lot to have this hair rebonded. I threw away more that a thousand pesos for "just hair" for some people, I stayed put and smiled when auntie pulls hard on my hair. It hurt! And, I didn't wet my hair for three days.. Yup yup yup.. I still didn't have a decent bath since saturday... hehe.. I hope it stays this way, my hair I mean... (Of course I take baths!)

And yeah, Carlos had his son baptized last sunday and it was nice...:) the food was great. the best. And we watched She's the Man on DVD. It was the best movie of the year.. It was funny and the guy was so sexy and seductive and MALE... Raw MALE. hahaha.. if you know what i mean... he's my new ultimate crush, Channing Tatum (weird name, but never mind).. sorry Gi, hehehehe.

That's all... im brain freezed (about Channing... *ooohh, you make me shiver) on what to write right now... so, till next time.

cheers..

About happiness...

I read this entry from Patrick's blog, entitled Happiness and it made me think of certain things..

Well, to Patrick: At least you've got one of what you wanted, being a programmer.. and you can work on being a performer...:)

Me, I never wanted to be in IT way back in college but look at where i'm now. Was I happy in college? Never, I was miserable. I felt double misery everytime we were given a project and I had no idea how to work it out. Programming was the worst. But thinking bout it now, I think I should be proud of myself for having the courage or maybe strength to graduate from a field I didnt like. I didn't even receive a grade of 5. That is of course, with the help of some friends.. :)

Having said that, the next question is.. Am I happy now? No I am not. But I am not miserable either. I am in a stage where I feel that I have to "make do" with what I got because it is better than nothing and it is better than most.

I have a nurse boardmate working at Mactan Doctors who receives a 7, 000 salary (to be deducted with tax). I received way more than that when I was at Xlibris and to think that a nurse's job is tedious, not to mention scary since you're dealing with a person's health and even life. And I only copied and pasted some texts in Xlibris..no sweat, hehe..

Right now, I am not completely happy and I wish that I could be somewhere and someone else rather than what/who I am now. BUT, I CHOOSE on settling with what I am and with what I have because thinking and wishing for things that can't be, could make me insane and bitter. Gigi knows I can be that... :)

As for the things I want and for the things that could make me happy and content, maybe I could have them someday. I have a family, I have a job, I have Gigi and many many things. And I should not be asking for more because I've had enough already. But as I've said from my previous blog, man's nature is to be never contented...

Hmm.. think about that.

cheers..

Mama's special sandwich spread..

When my brother and I were in elementary, my mom would pack us 2 sandwiches each for snacks. One for the morning break and one in the afternoon. Our favorite "palaman" was always Milo in between the sliced breads. Mama would put a liberal amount of the chocolate powder in the breads and pack them in tupperware containers and I remember that by the time our snacks period came, the powder would melt into sticky, semi-liquid chocolate. Much like hersheys. We loved it so much that every day for our 6 elementary years, we had the same snacks. Our classmates loved it too and they always ask for bites from our breads. Maybe they envy us for having a mother who prepares us special sandwiches.

Now that I'm working and in the night shift to boot, I wanted to make a similar sandwich but it would not melt like my mom's.

I miss the old days and I wish we could stay as children forever and find joy in anticipating the snack periods so as to gobble our favorite sandwich.

I want to make mother's sandwiches for my children someday. Maybe by that time, I would know the secret on how to make them.

My mama is the greatest...

cheers..

About sleep...

I was trying to sleep late this afternoon and my room mates were just plain noisy. Couldn't they respect those who needed to sleep? I try my best not make any noise when THEY are asleep.

Anyways, I've always had difficulty having deep sleep so I searched the net on foods that induce sleep. If I can't sleep, better eat than tossing and turning on the sheets. Here it is:

Snooze Foods
These are foods high in the sleep-inducing amino acid tryptophan:

Dairy products: cottage cheese, cheese, milk
Soy products: soy milk, tofu, soybean nuts
Seafood
Meats
Poultry
Whole grains
Beans
Rice
Hummus
Lentils
Hazelnuts, Peanuts
Eggs
Sesame seeds, sunflower seeds


Best Bedtime Snacks
Foods that are high in carbohydrates and calcium, and medium-to-low in protein also make ideal sleep-inducing bedtime snacks. Some examples:

apple pie and ice cream (my favorite)
whole-grain cereal with milk
hazelnuts and tofu
oatmeal and raisin cookies, and a glass of milk
peanut butter sandwich, ground sesame seeds (It takes around one hour for the tryptophan in the foods to reach the brain, so don't wait until right before bedtime to have your snack.)


Best Dinners For Sleep
Meals that are high in carbohydrates and low-to-medium in protein will help you relax in the evening and set you up for a good night's sleep. Try the following "dinners for sleep":

pasta with parmesan cheese
scrambled eggs and cheese
tofu stirfry
hummus with whole wheat pita bread
seafood, pasta, and cottage cheese
meats and poultry with veggies
tuna salad sandwich
chili with beans, not spicy
sesame seeds (rich in tryptophan) sprinkled on salad with tuna chunks, and whole wheat crackers


cheers..

This and that..

No interesting messages in my email today and I didn't have a good day's sleep. I don't think I like night shift that much. I just want to go home and sleep right now. To hell with work. I'm tired. I'm sleepy, my eyes and head hurts. I miss my bed at home in Iligan. I don't like my bed at the boardinghouse. It's too narrow. I miss my mamsy and popsy, I miss my house, I miss my brother. I wanna go home and never come back. No, I don't mean that... If Gigi isn't here, I wont waste a thought on staying in Cebu. I want a vacation... in Iligan. I want to eat home cooked meals, vegetable soup and monggo soup, my favorite. I miss watching cable tv and movies that I like. I want to sleep late at night and wake up late in the afternoon trying to finish a book. I want to do nothing, think of nothing and eat everything I crave for.

What makes a man happy?

What makes me happy? Right now, everything I mentioned above... but truly, what makes us truly happy and content and never wish for anything anymore? Maybe men are not supposed to have that, maybe wanting something is part of being what we are as human beings. So, I wish I'm not human. Because I feel guilty on wanting many more things when I have more than enough of my share of God's blessings and there are people out there who dont have anything.

cheers..

Ironic, isnt it?

Just when I was out of Xlibris, I just discovered that 04L's route runs through the rear of Elizabeth Mall. This means I could have saved about 200 meters worth of hiking from Land Bank to my boarding house after work. And I practically took the long way from the first day at Xlibris until I resigned... I didn't know! Talk about irony...

cheers...

About love..

I received this forwarded email from Mae:

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

So true.. I have found my guy or more likely, my guy found me.. :)
I am lucky and happy...

cheers..

About work...

i transferred to another company just a week ago and i dont know if i'll be happy with my new job for that matter... i have been dying to get out of Xlibris because i didnt like the job... weeellll, the job was okey, even simple. but it was too routinary and unchallenging that at the end of the day, i dont feel any satisfaction from the tasks I did.. submissions, submissions, submissions.. and then QA, QA, QA... everyday.. links everyday...

i wanted a higher salary... :) (who wouldnt) and i felt i could handle a few more responsibilities for a higher pay... well, here it is. but the thing is, i dont know if i LIKE handling resposibilities..

maybe i am just too lazy or maybe i got used to handling minimal work. dont know.

sometimes i wonder if i did the right decision to resign but i do know i have no career growth at my previous job...hmmm.. yeah.

oh geezz.. enough about this stuff... Maybe i should be more thankful that i got a job while others are suffering in the streets...

cheers..